Here’s where I was going when I sat down to write:
Can we talk about overwhelm? Because I’m there. I don’t care for it. One. Damn. Bit.
I was going to tell you how overwhelmed I am right now trying to get everything done before I go back to work after having a couple of weeks off, the computer issues I’m having, starting a new class this week and prepping for facilitating my first workshop. Whine, whine, wait a minute…bizarrely, mid-whine I realized how ridiculous I sounded. This is a breakthrough for me. Catching myself mid-whine is a pretty big deal.
Just noticing that I’m whining is the first step to regaining my balance. Then I took a deep breath, and another, and another one after that. I followed that up by thinking how lucky I am that I even have a fucking computer (let alone two) and a great day job that enables me to invest in myself and my future (my angel investor, so to speak).
Friday, in the midst of the chaos that was my living room exploding with Christmas decorations and practically in tears, I was reminded that I’m learning to be in integrity at all times (remember the integrity cleanse I told you about last week?) and in order to do that, I needed to set a boundary – for myself. I had planned to attend a workshop yesterday given by my dear friend & life coach. I realized that I was so overextended and overwhelmed that I chose to cancel. This was really hard for me to do. Really hard. I’m a recovering people pleaser after all. For me to actually listen to myself and my body, to pay attention and to acknowledge that what I was doing was honoring myself, instead of beating myself up for breaking a commitment, was a new one for me. The relief that washed over me was immense.
So, yesterday, after I finished my chores and my errands I took care of myself. To nurture my soul, I went to my neighbor’s house and hung out with, groomed and loved on her horses for a couple of hours. I was in horse heaven.
I found pure joy, and isn’t that what life’s all about?
How do you find your joy? Leave me a note below!